I want to be a real person-- that is what this year needs to entail for me. I don't want to be the phony "have it all together" wife or mom. Not only is that a lie it also is quite a burden.
Here is why I state my desire to not be a phony - just before Christmas I realized that I wanted to be generous more that I actually had been in 2009. So I paid for the people behind me in the Burger King drive thru. Instead of just being happy to do it I became a little prideful. (stupid I know it was $8) As I was leaving Fremont I took the kids to look at some Christmas lights and while we were gawking at the lights (and I was thinking how wonderful I was to be sooo generous) I ran into a snow drift and got stuck. Nice. Within 20 minutes of being sooo kind to someone else I was already in need of someone else to help me. I was back to reality. I need to be kind because that is what the Lord wants from me not so I can feel puffed up. So I am a phony and I will fight to be real this year and the next and the next. So heres to you...have a great 2010 and be yourself people with find it refreshing.