Here it is...

2010. Doesn't feel much different but no two days are the same so neither are the years. Lots of fun stuff will happen this year I am sure. Heck, another kid goes to school full time and the last goes part time. This might just be the best year of my life!!! I went back through my blog archives and it was fun to remind myself of the memories. This blog has really become a journal for our family. It has our ups and downs without really compromising any of us. While we still fight and bicker and complain we also still laugh and play and enjoy each other.

I want to be a real person-- that is what this year needs to entail for me. I don't want to be the phony "have it all together" wife or mom. Not only is that a lie it also is quite a burden.

Here is why I state my desire to not be a phony - just before Christmas I realized that I wanted to be generous more that I actually had been in 2009. So I paid for the people behind me in the Burger King drive thru. Instead of just being happy to do it I became a little prideful. (stupid I know it was $8) As I was leaving Fremont I took the kids to look at some Christmas lights and while we were gawking at the lights (and I was thinking how wonderful I was to be sooo generous) I ran into a snow drift and got stuck. Nice. Within 20 minutes of being sooo kind to someone else I was already in need of someone else to help me. I was back to reality. I need to be kind because that is what the Lord wants from me not so I can feel puffed up. So I am a phony and I will fight to be real this year and the next and the next. So heres to you...have a great 2010 and be yourself people with find it refreshing.